As I struggle to get through the long gray days of Canadian Winter, I find myself longing more and more for the sunshine and color that pops out in the solace of our garden each Spring and Summer.
I am reminded of the lovely little visitor we had last summer, who alighted on our Little Kim Lilac shrub, which was in full bloom and full of light fragrance that tickled our noses.
I ruminated, how very like the butterfly our lives can be. There are seasons in life when we too, pull back for a season to prepare for a Spring in our lives. Winter becomes a time (at least in my world), like my winged friend, a time to pull back, hole up, cut down on commitments, stay warm and cocoon. I lose my energy sometime in October every year without fail, and just getting my butt un-stapled from my warm cozy bed to get to work is an epic struggle until somewhere in April. I definitely have the S.A.D (Seasonal Adjustment Disorder).
All I want to do during the winter months is eat copious amounts of pasta, cheese, and drink wine. For a perimenopausal woman, none of those things are helpful in keeping oneself lithe and fit but I say: Comfort Food is by far the most satisfying and completely enjoyed in the winter. Summer is for Salads 🙂 My mid-level Fat Baby agrees. Good to have solidarity.
As I watched that butterfly doing her thing on our blooming shrub, I thought how she too had been cocooning for a season, before making her debut in full regalia and color. As I consider how I am cocooning at this time, I must remember that spring and summer will come, and I will come out of my warm shell once again, to languish in the colorful and juicy space that is our garden. The energy will return with the sun on my face, and the lightness of not having to bundle up each day.
Glasses of wine in the evening, the smell of freshly cut grass, the barbeques all over the neighborhood wafting into our yard, pulling ripe juicy crimson tomatoes off the vine for dinner – the enjoyment of dear friends and family – all of these vibrant and life-giving experiences are what I look forward to, and the thoughts of them help to keep me sane during the dark winter months.
Maybe you are one who loves the winter, and I may very well be on my own here – but if you suffer as I do, with the “Winter Blahs” how do you cope? If it’s wine – I want to know what you are currently enjoying! 🙂 What are the vibrant joys you anticipate in the Summer months?